I am writing this because I really need to get it out of my system, and it’s to you, but you won’t be reading it. I just want to tell you that I have put Robert and I behind me, for good. When he started flirting with me again, I realised that what we were doing was wrong, and bad for the both of us and so I asked him to stop flirting with me because we couldn’t keep going around in circles. I know I did the right thing, because lately, it wasn’t him I was thinking about when forwarded into the summer holidays, but you. I was looking forward to spending time with you, and how it would be when we met again. I hope that you will come back to me safely, and that we can continue to explore the potential behind all the words, kisses, and intimate moments that have been exchanged.
I see so many people around me going into relationships and I feel like I am just going no where. To everyone, I am the girl who does not like commitment, the girl who wants to be single and the girl who does not fall for boys easily, because when I do, I get over them the following week. I am that girl in everybody’s eyes, but I am so much more. In reality, I crave to have a relationship with somebody who can hold my attention for longer than a week. Somebody who I can depend on, and somebody who I can learn to love in the long run. I want to security, and I want somebody there. I put up a front, and I don’t let people see that that is what I truly want, because if I do, then I feel unwanted. It’s like how my parents used to tell me that no body would want me, maybe no body does?