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I want you to know I haven’t been with anyone else since we’ve been together. You’ve been on my mind and I really can’t make myself change unless it occurs naturally.

What do you want from me, Ryan? Why would you tell me that a day before I am about to see you? I guess that means I am not alone in that boat, however we can’t be in the same boat… you made your decision, remember? I don’t want to be the girl who you come back to when the decision you made doesn’t work out. I’m not a second option.

But will I be able to exercise the self restraint that is needed for tomorrow? Will we be able to?