How things change…
I had totally forgotten about this blog that I have. What do I know next? I get an email reminding me this place exists, and here I am back on this blog, reading some of my old stuff. It almost makes me embarrassed to have written some of this stuff because of how much my life has changed and how much I feel like I have changed.
First thing is first, I am no longer in a relationship.
—–It happened 6 months ago. I was heart broken, but now I have moved on 110% and I feel like a brand new person. It was hard, I did a lot of soul searching and finding out who I was without him, but I have come out of it, and now, finally, after 6 months am I finally able to say I have moved on and realised that while I did love him, he was not the right person for me. I changed parts of myself to fit in with his life and his views, and when you are in a relationship, you want to be accepted 100%. I didn’t realise this at the time, probably because I was so wiling to make those sacrifices and it didn’t really matter, but now i see how important it is to keep your identity and to fight for who YOU are, not for who someone wants you to be.
Secondly, I travelled solo.
—–It was my first solo trip. I went to Nepal, which was a holiday I used to rediscover myself and to get away from everything. It wast through this holiday that I feel like I gained so much, and I feel like I have come back somewhat different, somewhat more daring, and more confident and willing to try new things. This holiday for me was exactly what I needed at the time. Time to myself, time in a new country, time with new people.
Thirdly, I got my motorbike license.
—–I have had my L’s for ages, but never thought I would ride again, until the day I did. I fell in love with riding and got my P’s a week later. Now I have been searching high and low for a good bike to buy, with no success, however the search continues.
Fourthly, I want a tattoo.
—–I haven’t got one yet, mostly because I am lazy, however on the plane ride back from Nepal, I decided what I wanted. It has been over a month and I am still pretty damn set on getting this tattoo. I just need it to happen, soon I hope.